Sun and Moon

I'm in Kuwait right now, I haven't seen any clouds yet. The weather isn't bad. It's about 105F everyday around 1pm and at night it's about 80F at 1am. I'm seven hours ahead of people on the East Coast of the USA. I work at night, so I usually sleep during the hottest part of the day.

I've taken some pictures but I don't have internet for myself, so I can't upload any of them. I'm using the internet provided here on base for everyone. It's no big deal, just alot of dirt, haven't seen anything spectacular just yet.

Yesterday at work I did get to see the oil refinery that I work next to, burn off some oil (or something) that created thick black smoke. They usually just have the smoke towers burning all day and night, but I guess they needed to burn off something extra, and alot of it by the amount of smoke.

I recently started looking at Deviant Art. I really like to draw usually using just charcoal, but most of these people are very well talented. I guess it just comes natural. When I was taking art classes (about 10 years ago now) most of the people in the class were the same, seemed like they had a fountain of imagination that streamed directly out onto the paper. I was frustrated at what I produced starting off. But that was my first in a series of art classes, I did get better and started getting confident in my work.

I am still learning lessons about life. I don't know what happened, it seems like my entire life before age 25 was a blur, like I didn't have any direction or guidance. I have only recently become aware that I'm not the super-cool person that I thought I was, sometimes I do rub people the wrong way. I thought that I was above that. I'm a jerk sometimes but I don't mean to be, it's usually that I'm just tired - hungry - or I need to exercise.

Drawing would most likely reduce most of my stress.

I have so much that I what to do with my life. It would've been better if I figured out alot about myself and life during the first 25 years of my life. I'm 34 now and I feel like ship on the ocean with no port to call home.